The Irresistible Nature of Truth

Bikram says that what happens in posture clinic is private, between him and us and I am surprised every day at the vast pool of wisdom in front of me. I am privileged to learn from him.

This morning Danny from Bikram Yoga Vancouver taught, it was a solid class with lots of energy. This evening the studio owner from Costa Mesa taught and she had a dialogue that I could totally relate with. She made me feel like she was on my side so that I wanted to work hard. Some of her choice words in dialogue were deep an original. One of my favorites was "Witness the posture" during Tadasana.

The yoga is so beautiful. I see bodies changing, sweating, and beginning to shine.



This is beginning to feel like the long
winded blues of the never
This is beginning to feel like it's curling up slowly
and finding a throat to choke

This is beginning to feel like the long
winded blues of the never
Barely controlled locomotive consuming the picture
and blowing the crows, the smoke

This is beginning to feel like the long
winded blues of the never
Static eplosion devoted to crushing the broken
and shoving their souls to ghost

Eternalised. Objectified.
You set your sights so high.
But this is beginning to feel like
the bolt busted loose from the lever
-TV on the Radio

Spring

"It is the possibility- of turning yourself into the very thing you worship, call it God, super-consciousness, Brahman, Krishna, Kali, Shiva, the Self- that animates this story."- Stephanie Syman from the Subtle Body: the story of yoga in America.

Today was slightly more bearable. I chased the rush. Have you ever tried to keep the toes on your standing leg pointed directly forward towards the mirror while in tree? This simple modification is changing my life and realigning my entire body. Thank you Teacher.

My Decsion

I waited until 8PM for the last Bikram's class offered at my neighborhood studio. I did this because I knew that tonight my mind would be running wild and I would be desperately trying to calm it. My 90 minutes spent in class were used to control and meditate on the certainty of my strong body- to feel its edges and angels as I moved.

My intention today was determination to be at peace with my decisions. Small decisions in class such as not falling out of Dandayamana-JanuShirasana (Standing Head to Knee). My left leg kicks out so much more proud than my right one.

In Tadasana (Tree Pose), I looked at the way my strong and broad shoulders curve gently up creating my neck then up to my eyes and my hair as it fell out of place. I am gentle and I and strong. I am confident that the decision I made earlier today was neither right nor a wrong. I realize that is not what was ever about- the decision I made earlier today was My decision.

My class today was beautiful. My yoga practice is always challenging but today I chose to go to class because I wanted to and because I needed to.